My Father at 93

My Father at 93

 

Fragile, large

Full with

Bach cello suites

and ratatouille

That he made himself

 

Five days we breakfasted

lunched

and

suppered

 

Cooked applesauce

Picked basil

from the garden

Made fragrant

improvisatory

pesto

 

Spent two hours

Drinking margaritas,

eating guacamole

Waiting for mariachis

that never came

It didn’t matter that

they never came

 

Five days of waking and sleeping

Hawks circling and crying

Deer walking silently by the window

 

We sat close in a tiny movie theater

Watching a film that

tore at our dreams

as we slept

 

I put cream on his eyes

Rubbed his feet

Reassured him the way he reassured me

When I was a little girl

That everything was going to be all right

 

Driving him through the countryside

I look back and see

My sister and I sitting in the backseat

Singing, stroking each others’ hair

dozing

Hoping he’d carry us up the elevator

and plop us into our beds

 

He doesn’t believe in life after death

But I know that when he leaves this planet

we’ll find each other again

and just as it is happening now

the old hurts will have melted away

 

 

 

Morning Star Chenven

2013

 

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